For the victims in Connecticut....

I tried to make a post about this tragedy several times since I've heard the news, but every time I started crying and had to stop. 

I work at an elementary school and I have both my kids at an elementary school.....I've been having nightmares and anxiety attacks since Friday. You know, since I'm Autistic and all....I can't even imagine what those families are going through. 

 And every single detail that we're getting from the media, is literally making me sick. 

I've expressed my position of Autism linkage with violence before here (PLEASE STOP SAYING THAT), and I'm not going down that road again. 

BUT.....this is not about me or the mental (un)health of the shooter, it's about the little 20 children and the 6 school personnel that died, it's about their families and relatives having to bury children and loved ones, it's about families and an entire community having somehow to cope this 10 days before Christmas, it's about broken trust in humanity and broken hearts of innocent people. 

Pay your respect with me, if you please. 

Grateful

Well, Thanksgiving is come and gone, can you believe that? 

 Even if you don't, the turkey was eaten, the pie is gone, some of us is still in a turkey coma, others are drunk. 

I, personally, am grateful For a table full of yummy food:

For a juicy turkey

For my very first apple pie: it started as a pumpkin pie, but when we opened the pumpkin, we found only seeds, no pulp. So I had to improvise and I loved it!

And for my children. When I asked them what they were thankful for, they both listed me as the first person. 

My little girl included herself in the people she's grateful for (this is huge, we worked for months of her self-esteem) and my son listed the teachers and therapist from the Autism Center.  

I'm thankful that I'm doing a few things right. 

What about you?

Life in songs

Couple of songs that lately really recap how I feel about my children

Back from Pensacola

Just in case I will not be able to blog for the next days, let me just wish you all a
Merry Christmas!!!

We went to Pensacola yesterday to get Gabriel to his neurologist appointment and were able to get an EEG done, that didn't show anything abnormal going on with his brain....phewww.
With that news, I informed the doc that this will be our last visit since in a year of his care he really wasn't able to tell us much more of what we already knew and all the solution he proposed failed. Plus, our insurance copay went up to $50 and we just can't afford to go back and forward is nothing is really going to happen.
But I was happy that my little boy was able to go through and have the EEG done, I think it was thank to hubby that was there, I decided to leave the room 'cause last time I had Gabriel kicking and screaming and was too hard for me to watch.

When we were all done with the doc, Gabriel gets in the car ans says: "I think I did a good job to the doctor, so now I deserve some chicken nuggets and to go play in the playground".
So, mommy and daddy brought him in total amazement.
And there they are, posing for mommy while I was taking pictures of how much fun they were having.

Up on the slide.....

....then down! I love how my children stick together to each other while playing!

We had and amazing day and I hope the same was for you :)

Say WHAT?????

I was scrolling in the news title on the web and this article caught my eyes: Teacher Writes 'Loser' on School Paper.
Say WHAT???? I'm sorry, I usually don't engage in personal judgment on my blog 'cause I don't like to point fingers. But, this article touch 2 topic very dear to me at the moment: teaching and children.

Most of you know that I'm working my way in the teaching field and I LOVE children (not just my own) and there is no way that I can justify this teacher behavior. He must no be in his right mind and he needs to seek help ASAP before ruining the self esteem to poor innocent children.

It's also sad that in this recession, there are a lot of people that are unemployed and would do a wonderful job while people like this are allowed to have a job in such a way.
I really hope the school will do the right thing and remove this "teacher" from his position before he does more damages.

I just finished to read a very interesting book: The Biology of belief by Bruce Lipton. Dr Lipton empathize the importance of parents and caregiver figures in passing on children their believes. If you're told by young age that you're worthless and unloved, you grow up with that belief in your subconscious and it will take years to convince you that that's not the truth.
I invite all of you reading this post of mine to find a person in your life (family member, friend, coworker) and start showing your appreciation to them verbalizing and stating that they are doing a good job. Observe this person for months and you'll be amazed by the difference.

I saw it everyday with children with special needs: believe that they will accomplish things and they will. And the satisfaction inside is so sweet and has no price...

Back to school Gift Guide

Well, today for my son's first day at school and I know it was for many other children or will be soon.
So, here my back to school findings! Hope you find something that strike your fancy :)

Kodak Duaflex Film Notebook, $12 from studiomme

Denim pencil holder with cupcake silver applique, $8 from Crocheted Little Things

Brown and Pink 2 Ribbon Hair Clip, $3.50 from GrumblebeeDesigns
Buy 2 Get 1 Free (expire 9/01)

Daisies -Makeup Bag Sewing Pouch Purse, $12 from Sweet Irie

Recycled Magazine Picture Photo Frame, $26 from Au Natural, $20 from

Once again......

....I had to neglect my poor blog for personals matters.
Once again my son got really ill and for a moment I was really terrified.
But now the scary moments are behind and there are beautiful things awaiting.
I wanted to personally thank my closest friends (you know who you are) that stay closed to me in this difficult week and prayed for my boy. Your prayers helped us coming through, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!
So now, as promised some posts ago, here some pics of my beloved children!!!

This is Gabriel and Michelle during the Easter eggs Hunt.... I swear my living is not so messy usually!!

This is my children blowing the candle on Michelle's birthday cake

Hope you enjoy meeting my children!!! Until next time......

News in Gabriel's world!

Well, we finally got the results of all the tests we run on Gabriel my son, in the hope of getting him better. The results shows that there is something going on with my little guy, something more of just language impairment like we initially thought. The good news is that we found a school program that will help him evaluate and recuperate whatever is going on. This school program is available at the school just across the street from our house {which is very good, the car broke down again :(} and they're available to start with him right after spring break.

My thoughts today go to all the children out there like Gabriel, because children with this kind of issues are usually the sweetest in the world.

And to all the parents that like me are struggling with the desire and the fear of doing the right thing. If your child is smiling at you, you probably are doing something good!

I'd like to post some picture of my sweet little guy, but unfortunanly I'm having computer problems and the pictures are not available at the moment.